Is it bad to call myself an amazing mom because I went to parks 2 days, even though I hate them?

The parks I went to were both really nice, clean parks… but ugh – sun, sand, other kids, other parents.

I am amazing for going.

And I don’t even know if he really loves the park anyway…

Then, during his nap I made my pasta carbonara…

And I did something wrong for sure – I can’t decide if it’s delicious or disgusting. Like is it one of those things that I would eat but others would think is gross? The pancetta didn’t turn out well… the fat didn’t render down.

Anyone know how to make a great pasta carbonara?